The paths we take....

What lead you to your path?  Have you found it yet? Are you where you pictured yourself to be?
Honestly, I am not where I thought I would be at all, but I wouldn't change it. 


Growing up they always ask you, what do you want to be? I figured I'd be living in Manhattan with some fantastic job. But life happened and I put off college. Instead, I went into healthcare.  I had my CMA back home in NJ and worked in the field.  I loved it.  But after I had my oldest, Luke, I let my certifications expire.  After Connor was born I went back and got my CNA, but my heart really was not in it.  I took some time off and was going to go back, and then the other shoe dropped.  If you have read my other entries you know a lot has gone on with Connor.   I can not leave him to go work in a 9-5 job so I went back in May of 2012 to get my bachelor's in business, which to date I still completed.  Student loans are stacking up, but I know I'm doing what I want to do.  I am going to finish and I will open my store front.  I will never have to leave Connor with anyone.  I will never have to worry that he will have an apnea episode that a sitter or daycare provider will miss and I will lose him.  Being 30, with three kids and one on the way and sitting at school for a four hour class that starts at 6pm is rough, but that is my path.  That is what I have to do to get to my end goal.
It's exhausting to say the least, but very much worth it.  We all have our paths.  Connor is moving along on his quite nicely.  He is doing amazing in Occupational Therapy, I can see so many improvements.   He started speech therapy today as well.  I am very confident that by the time kindergarten comes, Connor will be ready, just like everyone else. 


All I know is when it is time for me to graduate, my main focus when walking across that stage will be my four babies in the audience with my husband.  They are what it's all about.  They are what molds my path and what makes my dreams come true.












“Not I, nor anyone else can travel that road for you. You must travel it by yourself. It is not far; it is within reach. Perhaps you have been on it since you were born, and did not know.  "